18 – Some Days Just Feel Darkfeatured

This day is one for the trash pile. Hopefully not all of it, but that remains to be seen.

I have tried to write these posts from a positive perspective. Attitude determines altitude, right? But today has been a hard one. Not every part of it has been bad, but enough that it has gotten the best of my energy. As I was driving I had the impression that I needed to go home and add this to the Blog. You need to know that you are not alone when you have dark and heavy periods.

For me, today, it is not all directly related to my loss of membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I have some work frustrations. There are some relationships I have that are not where they should be. I could work on a whole “Anti-Gratitude” list and find lots of things to make me feel even worse, but I am resisting that urge. 

Fortunately, I do not suffer from true medical depression, but some days I get depressed.

In Henry V, Shakespeare says, “If you’re going through hell, keep going”.

An old friend Duane would often say “It’s not going to win, I’m going to win”.

So today I will keep going. I am going to win. I have an amazing, wise and supportive wife. And I have a friendship with Jesus Christ.

In his talk “Look to God and Live”, Elder Jeffrey R. Holland stated: “In a world of some discouragement, sorrow, and overmuch sin, in times when fear and despair seem to prevail, when humanity is feverish… I too say, “Trust Jesus.” Let him still the tempest and ride upon the storm.”    -Oct 1993 General Conference

I hope you have someone in your life – spouse, friend or other inspiration – to turn to. Additionally, these are the days that faithfully working on that relationship with Jesus builds trust in Him.

Satan may have taken several hours of this day from me, but now I’m going to take the day back for myself.

Let’s go Jesus!